The Fragments of the Self: A Journey into the Closet in Bret Easton Ellis's The Shards
I have always believed that the most important books are the ones that read you, the ones that resonate with a part of your experience so intimate that it seems as if the author had spied on your thoughts. That happened to me with The Shards, by Bret Easton Ellis. And not because I live in a mansion in Los Angeles in the 1980s, nor because a murderer is stalking me (fortunately). What tore me apart about this novel—and why I've decided to write about it—is something that critics often overlook while entertaining themselves with the superficial thriller. I'm writing this post because, beneath the layer of suspense, The Shards is one of the most lucid and heartbreaking portraits I've ever read about what it means to pretend in order to exist. As a Level 1 autistic person, I know something about social performance. I know what it's like to study a script of gestures and responses, to calculate every interaction, and to feel, deep down, like an alien observer of...